Writing the Apocalypse | The Writer: May His Memory Be Blessed

Parachute jump and subway tracks. | Photo Puma Perl

“Writing the Apocalypse” is a weekly series featuring the poems, essays, and recollections of Puma Perl, with subject matter influenced by her experiences as a NYC resident during the COVID-19 pandemic.

 The Writer: May His Memory Be Blessed | BY PUMA PERL

 

Mr. Savage, you’re not dead yet?

 

And leave my rent-controlled apartment?

I’m living to the age of 99 just to torture you.

 

An 11th Street studio with an alcove,

heart of the Village, an old walkup,

45 years of Marlboros staining the walls,

not much heat in the winter, and a landlord

who still comes around for the rent.

 

It was their monthly routine.

 

Mr. Savage, you’re not dead yet?

 

I don’t know when the jokes stopped,

maybe with the first wheelchair

or the oxygen tanks or the ambulances.

 

Definitely with the pandemic.

Death stopped laughing.

 

Savage was an amiable guy who didn’t much like people

but loved women, whether or not he liked them.

 

He liked the Thai family in the laundromat next door

and the guys from Agata’s Gourmet Grocery

who delivered his food, and me and Jack Henry

and my kids and a smattering of old friends.

 

He liked his memories of working at the Cedar Tavern,

referred to his place as his “pad,” Amiri Baraka as “Roi,”

spent his afternoons on the same brown sinking couch

where Cecil Taylor used to sit when he visited,

and the women were all called “Baby” and “Sweetie.”

 

I remember meeting him one night for dinner.

It was a good hair day, plus boots and leather jacket.

I watched him watching me cross Second Avenue,

his appreciation lighting me up, making me feel

like Sophia Loren in a Patti Smith t-shirt.

 

We had dinner at the Noodle Shop

and went our own ways to watch the playoffs.

 

Baseball, a pint of Häagen-Dazs, a book by his side

made for a good night with few regrets.

 

At times like that I still saw the tall, angry boy,

several years older than I, whom I met

in a Coney Island basement when I was a kid.

He and my best friend were in love, crazy love,

walking miles in the rain singing songs love.

 

I still picture them on the boardwalk,

backs pressed against the wall,

the “you and me against the world, baby”

already ingrained, shaping their lives forever.

 

Treating myself, he’d say about a thick steak

and a working girl on New Year’s Eve or his birthday,

a hard-covered copy of the latest Philip Roth,

some Thelonious Monk in the background.

 

Trapped by the pandemic, his great mind began to slip.

One day he asked me what “enjambment” meant.

For a poet of his stature, it’s like Tom Seaver

forgetting the meaning of a fastball.

 

(The Yankees were his heart, but he’d root for the Mets.)

 

As his body rebelled he’d look back and say

all in all it was a good life, wonderful women,

great music, he always worked, and still had

a couple of letters from Bukowski in his drawer.

 

I’ve been a lucky guy, he’d say, sitting in the stuffy

room in late afternoon light, tubes wrapped around his

desk chair, cigarettes hidden in a file, deep breaths

filled with dust, one flight of stairs impassable without help.

 

I’ve had a good life, he’d say,

I’m one of the luckiest guys alive.

Luck, he’d repeat, don’t ever underestimate it.

We work and plan and scheme and pray

but dumb providence calls the shots.

 

Now I am bereft with no one else to mourn,

and I am angry at every life lost

and the nonchalance of the response.

 

I message Jack, the only person I know who cares

besides the stranger who tracked me down.

Jack produces a stellar poem ten minutes later.

I’m jealous of that poem, choked on words.

More will come, Jack assures me,

You were closer. Different speeds of recognition.

 

On the Writer’s birthday, the same days as Monk’s,

and two days before my father’s, I dream of both,

embodied by Broadway shows and Allen Ginsburg.

 

In his memory I wear good black jeans,

a lot of eye make-up and a Veniero’s tee-shirt,

and sit at the computer trying to write

a poem he’d have liked, something true.

He’d have told me straight out if he didn’t,

and he’d have been able to tell me why.

 

We talked about poetry and Coney Island

and wild cards and escaping Brooklyn,

sun drenched stoops, Monk and Coltrane,

but we never discussed the next stop.

 

As Jews, we don’t go anywhere

except back to the earth,

we don’t rest in peace,

he’s not looking down at me,

he’s not reading this poem,

he’s not in pain, he’s not joyous,

he’s just gone.

 

The apartment will be painted,

the brown couch will sink into the street.

 

I hope his brother saves Bukowski’s letters

and the book of plays signed by Harold Pinter.

 

So, Mr. Savage, I say, I hear you’re finally dead.

 

Nah Baby, he answers with the Savage chuckle.

Soul’s still percolating.

And I set the little bastard’s kitchen on fire before I left.

 

Norman Savage.

The Writer.

May your memory be blessed.

© puma perl, 10/12/20

 

Puma Perl is a poet and writer, with five solo collections in print. The most recent is Birthdays Before and After (Beyond Baroque Books, 2019.) She is the producer/creator of Puma’s Pandemonium, which brings spoken word together with rock and roll, and she performs regularly with her band Puma Perl and Friends. She’s received three New York Press Association awards in recognition of her journalism, and is the recipient of the 2016 Acker Award in the category of writing. Her most recent books can be found by clicking here.

Lone walker on Coney Island. | Photo Puma Perl

 

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